thoughts from tuesday morning by stuff7, literature
Literature
thoughts from tuesday morning
it's 3:22 am,
a tuesday morning,
i haven't been
able to sleep
since the last
time you
left me.
every time i swear it's
the last time i'll let you
hurt me, but every day i'm
still hoping you'll come over
and leave me with a few more scars.
-
i've been saving my worst
words for my worst intentions.
but i honestly have nothing
bad to say to you.
i wish i could hate you.
-
if i've learned nothing
from my time here,
i've learned that you
should never anchor
your ships to foreign
ports. you call this city
home for a reason. keep
your feet firmly planted,
while your eyes may stray
and try to betray you
with far away ocean tides.
beautiful s
1.21.13
i.
my mother asked me, "don't
you love yourself in the winter?"
i said, "no, not really," but
i really meant to say
"hardly at all."
ii.
i am disconnected,
double jointed,
arm out of socket,
breath out of lungs.
i know a cold that you don't.
it reaches deep down into my
bones and whispers, "quiver",
with such authority that even
the muscles in my chest comply.
iv.
please, don't teach me your name
if you are going to leave.
you are the one person
i couldn't handle losing
because everybody leaves
but you.
v.
i want to learn to breathe
like i used to, i want to
feel warm air in my lungs,
not catastrophes